Salam.
I should be on bed right now. Tomorrow, the whole family gonna go to SMIH, JB to buy some books that needed for Achik. Somehow, Uda who already stay there since 23rd Dec, seem to order quite few things from us. Sigh. I am so jelous. Haha! Once i said to mum, "can i follow Uda to Jawa?" Mum said yes, if i have money. Well, i actually already had some money from previous job, am i? Haha! But the thing is, the time just not right for me. Should i skank the classes just for Jawa?
Apa-apa pun, aku terfikir sebenar beberapa hari yang lepas. Aku tak update blog beberapa hari sebab pergi memburu. Memburu blog-blog yang dah lama tak terbaca, and i miss that time so much. Once, i've became an addicted blogger and everyone just know me through the blog, chatting with me, ask opinion, tell joke or story or even problem, and sort on. It was memories. Somehow, when i had massive problem in my head, i just cannot ignore my blog. I'm gonna be as i am before NOW. Well, sometimes the surrounded 'ask' us not to be like the way we use to be. 'They' said, we are different now. How different is that? The heart will always wanted to be as what we meant to be. The truth is, when the life began to hurt, began to crush, we just doesn't want to think again and again what was the problem.
[ I just realized something, Uda got 3A 3B 1C 1D 1E 1G for his SPM trial. Well, u might said "what so proud about it?". I should say i am very proud of it. He doesn't have basic of form 1 until form 4. He had no clue what so ever on that years. After standard 6, he flew to UK and come back after 4 years. Then what? He need to be a form 5 student. Mum said, u need to pass your SPM Bahasa Malaysia. Haha! Just in one year, he survived to get this result? And he also became one of the best student in his school. How proud am i. I know i couldn't be such a clever student as him, but as a sister, that's the best feeling to have from own brother. - i hope no one gonna tell him that i put this in here. He'll kill me if everyone knows his result. ]
Apa yang aku cuba sampaikan, sesetengah blogger ada kaitan dengan orang-orang (blogger) yang aku dah jumpa. Jadi, aku rasa seronok agaknya kalau aku dapat jumpa mereka-mereka ini (walaupun aku tak ada link mereka). Hehe! Bak kata Mia, diorang famous sebab ada blog saja. Seriously, it wasn't a joke. Oneday, people will say to us, "Kausar yang ada blog tu ke? Mexme? Kan?" Haha! Ini pengalaman. It just amazing when people remember our name and relate it with our blog. The name just matching to the blog. But today, mexme is not my name anymore. Let it be a history from the past. Let me be a new me to have a better life.
After a year without blogging, i feel like i don't have a shoulder to cry on. Empty. Not that i am not pray for the goods return, but lumrah manusia itu perlukan seseorang untuk mendengar ceritanya, at the same time we can see the react on her face about the problem, whether she likes it or not. Haha! Not really. Aku tak tahu kuasa apa yang menarik aku untuk terus menulis di sini. Aku harap blogger di luar sana tak jadi macam aku, kejap tulis kejap tak tulis. One of the reason i couldn't shout my blog loudly, i'm afraid the ticker cannot let me spend more time with the blog. Insyaallah, i will try my best untuk dapatkan register internet dekat laptop aku. Dah 2 sem aku nak, asyik malas je. Doakanlah ya sem akan datang ini aku tak malas dan tak lupa. Encouragement are needed, let it be from the prays of all. Bila dah dapat, i will use the opportunity to keep updating my blog regularly.
Oklah, selamat berblogging to all.
Wassalam.
